Here comes the very motive of this blog...since I was born I kept my eye glittering that one fine day even I will touch the sky. I will fly high in the deep blue sky. There were obstacles to blow me down. Problems that shattered my glass home (The one I had decorated in my eye) into pieces...but again I collected those and again a home was built.
It stands tough now, may be those wounds made it strong.. probably made me design it more properly everytime it was broken. The days when these dreams were in their making..ah..!! How beautiful were they..!! I still remember those days when I went up the terrace, saw shooting stars showing their magic on mind. Since then those stars have become my friends...rather lost friends with no specific identity of their own... but still something in them tells me everytime that they are wating for me up there... wating for me reach them... wating for me to shine with them...probably even more brighter than them..and so I aim them...aim above sky...as sky is not my limit...!!!
I wanna make clear to all my readers that you won't find any specific class of topics in this blog, its all in general. No techniques, no social melodrama, no science and no formulas..But one thing (as an author) I would like to mention is all posts of this blog would have one thing in common and that is emotins. Emotions ranging from love , passion, sorrow, heartbreak, seperation, comfort, hatred ,compassion bla bla bla.... I know you people are when it comes to english..AND THIS ONE IS DEDICATED TO EMOTIONS OF BEING A GIRL..!!!
I would start with a question .. what comes to your mind when you see the girl above in the pic???? PLEASE (DISCOMFORTS ARE REGRETTED) ... without reading further if you can publish a comment which answers this question...Well if asked to me I would say a girl fighting for herself, a girl on a revolution.But revolution against whom??
FRIENDS .. its no simple revolt as done here and there in the street, its a revolt on a much larger scale yet a silent one..she fights against the world silently.!!! I don't know why I caught hold of this topic but something definetly bothers me and so I write about all this. They say today a girl's steps match with that of boys. Fine I do agree on this ... I know they have come up on ground where work and living is concerned. But has this change occurred in people's mind to..?? Larger part of our country lies dying with the same thought still. Girls - Ah..!!! A weaker gender..!! Today when a girl walks along a street guys crack cheap jokes on her face,and she is helpless. She can also go and slap them on the very moment.. but there lies a differene..and that is female hormone is the most composed one not like a cheaper male one..!! It's not a disclaimer to anyone...no offence but these things are practical. AND IT HURTS..!!!! Is it her mistake?? These things happen with each and every female. They get so used to all this. But is this going to solve this problem ...?? I guess no..!! She has to fight . Silence needs to be broken now. It's high time. So let's rise and revolt not against the people but the evil...!!!
I KOYAL , a few months ago lost all my belief in love at this age. Probably it was because I never got to see a real one. I saw people playing with body, mind , soul and what not. And when they lost interest in this game , they didn't stop playing,they still played but shifted to next player. Why?? Do you have an answer to this..?? And the part for which I felt sorry was... When you go and ask them about there present relationship ... they laugh and say "Who cares ?? Its just for fun...!!!!" Ah..!! I don't know what they meant by fun..?? If you people have an answer please do write me a comment...I will be grateful to you for answering this..
I always thought boys were wrong but never had enough proof to justify this thought of mine. But recently what I saw changed my mind.( Girls ..!! No partiality but I tell this being a judge..).I saw one of my aquaintance suffering because his girl shifted to the next player. I felt his condition would have been so bad seeing this happening infront of his eye. How would he be feeling..?? Shit man..!! I curse that girl ..!!And the sadest part was even after all this happened he never blamed the girl. He took the blame on himself. May be this was a true love. There were many incidents alike which happened before this one. I saw one of the guy left his MBA in a very renowned university of India just because his girl did not qualify the same . Now both of them are preparing hard together for CAT. I started believing in love. People can love . Yeah..!! Its a hard truth that its very rare to find true love at this age. Most of the conditions you find people falling in love .. But how can it be a love when you don't rise in it..???
DON'T TAKE PEOPLE FOR GRANTED..!!! IT MAY HURT YOU BADLY....
IT hurts...But how many will understand?? How it feels when your emotions lie on the playing court?? How it feels when they are ready to be misunderstood?? How it feels when the person whom you consider your god never cares about you and is ready to bruise your feelings anytime and everytime ?? It feels like hell..You question your birth?? Were you born so that people can use you for there momentary gain and throw you without any conditions thereafter...???
You look back and laugh at yourself and your foolishness. Again you cared for a wrong person. But someone inside you says " you can't change yourself and your morals just because they are not respected." You think its none of your business to check people from the otherside of the commitment.. You just have to love without any terms and conditions and keep yourself going even if you don't get the same in return.......
I dreamt that I wandered by this way..the bare weather suddenly changed to spring, my steps lay gentle odours of happiness around. The roaring breeze mixed with the sound of the waters murmuring forming a soothing note. (In context with our life, a sad and a happy part mix together to form a happy living )...The sea lies calm this morning, tide is full, and the sun lies fair.This sea of faith, with eternal notes of sadness in ,swept with confused alarms of struggle .
Even then the serene nature manages to go with the same harmony, same soothing continuity...
And so we.. We face loads of struggle, some part of us is happy while other lies wounded, even then we should proceed in our life with this belief that things will become sweeter again, and one day we will rule over this pain of ours... with this belief that when dusk has approached CAN DAWN BE FAR BEHIND...!!!!
Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in hand.Held loosely, with an open hand.. It remains intact. The minute you tighten your hands to hold it firmly, the sand flickers through your fingers. You may hold some part of it but maximum part would be spilled. A relationship should be like that.. given lots of freedom without any boundries or walls.. It should be set free. The measure of the sweetness of your relationships can be done by the measuring freedom you have allowed in it..You should trust the relationship you make, leave it free.. if its a true one it will live strongest but if it's lost like that sand, there is no point in brooding over because it was never yours..
ISHQ VISHQ....a movie casting Shahid Kapoor and Amrita Rao..In this movie "agar tumhara pyaar jaana chahe to usse jaane do, agar woh laut ke aaye tab hi woh tumhara hai.. varna woh kabhi tumhara tha hi nahi..." a dialouge said by Payal Mehra alias Amrita relates with whatever I mentioned above. It's not becoming filmy or something ...sometimes these films do teach us good...right?? I believe trust and freedom are two utmost important ingredients to make a good relationship.
SO SET YOURSELF AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP FREE.....!!!
( NOTE: a small recommendation , after reading this post please go and hear the title track of" U , ME , AUR HUM")
YEH ZINDAGI KA SABSE HASIN RANG HAI..
YEH JEENE KA SASBE PYAARA DHANG HAI...
YEH HAIN TO KHUSHIYAAN SANG HAIN..
YEH NAHI TO HAR PAL BERANG HAI...!!!!!
AGAR YEH KAANTE HAIN ,
TO INKI CHUBHAN BATATI HAI KI TUM AB BHI ZINDA HO..
AGAR YEH PHOOL HAIN,
TO INKI MAHAK BATATI HAI KI TUM AB BHI SAANS LENA JAANTE HO..
AGAR YEH ZEHER HAI ,
TO ISKA ASAR BATATA HAI KI TUMHARI RAGON MEIN AB BHI RAWAANI HAI..
AUR KYA KAHOON ... ISKE BINA ADHOORI HAR KISI KI ZINDAGAANI HAI..!!!
In your life , you come across many frontiers when you start questioning yourself, your conscience , your intellect, your heart, soul, mind, and above all ...YOUR BEING..!!! You start thinking why you came here?? You become self consumer of your woes,woes which rise and vanish in oblivious host..And friends believe me you stand on the most tender part of your life where you gotta make a decision for a lifetime...
People question you and then you are into the nothingness of scorn and noise,into the living sea of waking dreams,where there is neither scenes of life nor happiness.... but then comes something very contrasting...and that is most of the time you find the people who question your standpoint are themselves thriving on a fake belief, a fake life.
From past few days these things were troubling me a lot but finally I came to an answer for all this.. and that was "I can't keep on changing myself for each and every comment that is made on me,because if I do that I will forget my own self." I should believe myself ,proceed further taking all comments as a feedback and improve myself. In this process I will encounter many obstacles, but they will improve the taste of my success. WON'T BOTHER ABOUT PEOPLE AND MOVE ON...